I have often talked about my habit of waking in the mornings and listing 5 things I am thankful for as a way to colour my day, and to remind me that all is not actually lost. But, like every other human being on earth, I tend to get bogged down at times with the things I do not have, and cannot do to the exclusion of everything else. Even those multitude of blessings. I am an idiot. Human, though.
So I thought I would talk to myself today a little. Bear with me, people.
- No, I cannot run (yet) but I CAN walk (with a stick). I am thankful.
- I cannot climb down a mountain, but I CAN climb up (a small one). I am thankful.
- I hurt a great deal, but I CAN feel, and am not as bad as some. I am thankful.
- It takes me longer to do most things, but I CAN still do things. I am thankful.
- I can only drive short distances, but I CAN drive! I am thankful.
- No, I don't have a wood burning stove or a fireplace, but I CAN keep warm. I am thankful.
- I don't live in my dream house, but I DO have a home. I am thankful.
- My bathroom may need to be replaced asap, but it STILL works. I am thankful.
- I may not like what I see over the fence, but I DO have a garden I can grow things in. I am thankful.
- My children may live far away, but I CAN talk to them, SEE them (on skype), and chat to them thanks to the marvels of modern day technology. I am thankful.
- I can't afford to spend loads on presents, but I CAN use my time to make things. I am thankful.
- I can't fix everyones' problems, but I CAN listen. I am thankful.
- I may get lonely, but I DO have great friends. I am thankful.
- Life may be a trifle challenging, but I CAN still smile. I am thankful.
And that list is just for starters. I could go on. And on.
It is so easy to focus on the stuff I can't do. Don't have. Bad stuff, and heaven knows there has been a great deal of that in my life in recent years. It has been challenging all right. BUT what have I learned from that? So much. So much stuff which has shaped the woman I am today. Not quite what I had in mind, I freely confess. I was born to glide through life. Hahahahahahahaha! Well, the thought would be great at least! Sigh. Oh well........... I do still have dreams, of course!
Actually, gliding may have been a little boring. Perhaps.
No. Everything has happened for a reason. I popped in to the doctor's today to collect a note, and I was chatting to the receptionist about how, until a few years ago, I never darkened their doors. Ah yes - the reason I said that was because she knew who I was straight away, and I said - so anonymity is out then, or something like that. And I left grinning. And as I walked out the door, she called after me and said - "At least you can still smile, Linds."
She is right. I can still smile, after all that has happened.
And for that, my friends, I am truly thankful.
Happy Thanksgiving to all my American friends for tomorrow!