Sunday, March 09, 2008

The sun is shining..

There is a lot to be said about the restorative powers of a couch, a soft blanket, mindless TV, coffee and chocolate. And a weekend. I have combined the lot and had a few very pleasant snoozes thankyouverymuch. And then I had to phone a friend in the middle of the night to find out what happened at the end of CSI New York, as I snoozed through it all, and we all know that we cannot possibly go to sleep not knowing the outcome. And we discussed our dire need of a social life which does not involve snoozing on the couch. Movement. Interaction. Conversation. You know what I mean. Real life.

Today the sun is shining. My mother has felt the need to regale me with details of "the worst storm of winter" which is due to hit us tonight or tomorrow. Just when I was listening to the birds twittering and watching the sun. This, I suspect, is why we need to enjoy every moment as it happens!

Thank you all for your lovely comments over the past week. Your prayers, concern, and words of encouragement have been wonderful, and Jono's family are so grateful too. His funeral is on Friday.

Most of all, the time I have taken for reflection (which sent me to sleep) has shone a spotlight on how I divide my time, and the priority I set for things like work, family, home, friends, me etc etc. I am doing too much "busy" stuff and juggling too fast to try to keep all the balls in the air, and I am missing the point. Or avoiding it. How much of what I am doing right now in my normal daily life is going to count? How much am I missing? What am I ignoring or overlooking? How little am I trusting? What will be remembered?

By nature, I am impulsive. I leap in and do things. Now I am considering a radical shakeup, and huge decisions with many ramifications, and it is something I have no-one here to share the options with, because there is no-one they will affect as much as me. I am probably making no sense at all. But things are afoot in my mind. (That sounds quite ridiculous - just read it again...afoot in ....never mind!) I am not complaining about being alone, by the way. It is just a practical, logical observation. Others can offer different perspectives on my options, but they will never have to live them. See? It makes a difference.

However.

The sun is shining. I am wasting time.

9 comments:

Dawn said...

I love this post - you sound so rested. I am thankful you've had time to look at your life rather objectively, and that some decisions are "afoot" in your brain!

I know you will share with us what you can when you can!

Enjoy the sun - and hope the storm of the century passes over you and heads into the ocean!

Penless Thoughts said...

Sounds like things are astir!!! We'll await the next step.
Susan

Isabelle said...

You're absolutely right - it would be good to spend one's life doing worthwhile things. I wish I knew how to make time! I await your solution with interest...

Glad that you're feeling a bit healed, but I'm sure this will be another difficult week.

Thinking of you and of Jonno's poor family.

Vee ~ A Haven for Vee said...

Still grinning about "afoot" in my mind, but I know what you mean about being alone and not having anyone with whom you can bounce ideas around because whoever it might be just won't be impacted by it in the same way that you will be.

Sounds all very intriguing...are you planning to move to New Zealand? Good thing that whatever you do and wherever you go, God's love will be there and so will we internets presuming you're not giving up your computer.

I was very glad that you had a weekend to just be — just rest.

Ongoing prayers for the Barber family...

Needled Mom said...

It sounds as though your weekend was full of much needed rest for your mind and body...a time to regroup and set priorities. I know how much you needed that after what you have been through lately.

I do hope the big storm does not hit you and you can enjoy a little more of that most welcome sunshine.

Have a good week.

At A Hen's Pace said...

Linds--

Somehow my comment on the post with Jono's picture didn't go through, I see--just wanted you to know that I was praying for you and the family then. His picture reminds me so much of a young man we know. I have had two friends lose their 17-year-old sons in car accidents...it's very, very hard.

I am praying now for your decisions afoot and in mind...

:)

Jeanne

Janine said...

Ah, it sounds as if the universe is telling you that life is precious and that we must be present for each and every moment. Sometimes we spend so much time worrying about the past or the future that we forget to just live in the moment. Janine

meggie said...

Thankyou for your kind words & thoughts recently Linds. They do help.
I hope you are not suffering damage from the threatened 'worst storm ever'. I heard news reports of it, last evening.

Morning Glory said...

Hmmmm......good thoughts, Linds. I enjoyed reading this. Sharing your words and ideas is definitely not wasting time. You always contribute to my life in a unique way.