Tuesday, February 08, 2011

Stuck.....

If too many people try to get out of the door in a stampede, no-one gets out. They all block the door. And so it is with words today. Too many are trying to get out, find space on the screen and in my mind, and as a result, I can't write anything. Topics yell like Wall Street traders, trying to be the Ones I hear and choose. And they all shout so loud, and all have such justification. And I can't hear myself think at all.

That makes sense to me. I hope it makes sense for you too.

All day, and what a beautiful day it has been - blue skies, sunshine and no wind, thank heavens - as I have completely overdone things, I have had the words leaping about in my head, tumbling over each other. While my schedule for the day may look like nothing to most of you, it was packed for me, and pacing bit the dust.

I should have stopped 10 minutes after I went out to try and save the greenhouse. And the stuff in, around and under it. I didn't stop.The sun was shining. And then I had bills to pay and that meant a visit to the nearest town, which meant walking and standing in queues. The queue bit was a disaster. My stick and I tried a balancing act. I had Things To Do. So I didn't do the sensible thing and go and have a coffee and rest a while, did I. That would be no.

And so the day went on. People to see. Calls to make. Fixing things. And here I am in a mess and the words I really want to spill out are log-jammed. I never learn, you see. Do something for 10-15 minutes and rest. Hahaha. I HAVE to start following instructions or I will never get it right. And getting it right is the way I learn to manage this, and not let it manage me.

The couch calls. Tomorrow is going to be a very slow day. Very slow.

6 comments:

Dawn said...

Oh, my, Linds. I hope you feel better tomorrow, and that you'll take it slow! I'm thankful the wind has stopped and the sun came out. It is very cold here today, and we've had a bit of snow. But no wind, thankfully.

For a chairside trip that takes no energy, come on over and check out our day in Boston! Talk about a snowy place this year.

Vee said...

It is the absolute puds to have to learn things the hard way and all over again to boot. Sigh. Yes, I have been doing things this fifteen minute way for some time... One gets a lot of things done fifteen minutes at a time as long as one doesn't take breaks that, which for me, last an hour or two. I decided that I would invite someone in for supper. It's now 3:51 and supper for six o'clock and I'm doing what? Baking dessert? Preparing vegetables? Cleaning off the dining room table? No! I'm visiting you. Take good care of yourself now...

Donnetta said...

Slowing the pace... something I find myself having to continue to work on as well.

May you find tomorrow to be a very slow, relaxing day indeed!

Needled Mom said...

It is hard to pace oneself when you get going, isn't it? That couch will feel fabulous tomorrow.

Linda said...

It really is difficult to slow down when there is so much to be done - however...you must take care of yourself dear friend.
I am just the opposite - Can't find a word rattling around in my little head. I shall be content to read everyone else's.

Sheila said...

I think you need a day off - when I need to sit and read a novel all morning I put on some quiet music and make a cup of blackberry tea. At least you got some of the chores done so you may be able to relax tomorrow. I hope so. I enjoyed reading through some of your previous posts. You're a wonderful writer Linds and tomorrow the words will flow - once you've had a rest.