Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Files and folders

I am weary. Tired. The files are getting bigger and the folders are getting fatter, and my head hurts. I need to finish it all this week. 5 more things to get through. No time to post and no time to read. And I wake every hour with more questions lined up in my head. Therefore..... I am weary. Tired.

I am looking at the papers "objectively" and then every now and then I see the man. I am the only one who can see him. I look at the x-ray of his chest and it looks like him, not just bones. I look at a photo of him just after his first op in March last year in the hospital, and then one taken 3 days before he died in the hospital and I can't understand why the weight recorded on the charts is the same. The man is half the size he was. I have to get this right.

So I have nothing to say that won't bore you all to death. I will be back when I have the energy.

My sister will be here this time next week.

And there are a lot more people out there who are in far more overwhelming positions than I am. Kelli needs your prayers. It is humbling to be reminded.


Penless Thoughts said...

Know linds that you are being covered and surrounded by much prayer from ALL over the world. Soon this will be over.

His Singer said...

Praying for the befuddlement to clear and the sharp mind to overtake all as you do this, my friend. Just remember to do it the same way you'd eat an elephant, one bite at a time, and it will soon be all done. I have every confidence in your ability!

...and not so much in the Royal Post and US Postal system. (snickersnickerlaughlaugh)


PEA said...

Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers...this will all be worth it in the end, you just hang in there! xoxo

Susie said...

Dear Linds,
Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. Don't worry about blogging at all. You need to focus your energy on the coming week.
love and ((hugs))

Dawn said...

WE are all thinking of you and praying for you!

Crystal said...

I'll be praying fervently in the weeks ahead, LInds. I so admire you for dealing with this whole thing. It must be very difficult.

Thanks for checking into my blog while I was gone. It was nice to know that friends were passing by. I think I'm caught up on your blog now - alot happened with everyone while I was away for 3 weeks. I loved your wisdom about words and different meanings - so, so true!!

Stay in touch - God bless!

Linda said...

I will be praying for you Linds. I know that you are going to do a great job with this. Rest whenever you can and enjoy the visit with your sister.

Barbara said...

Hi! Linds

Sorry you are so tired. Hope you aremanaging to get some rest. I guess the mental questioning must be exhausting.Your writing is good on all your posts. Very expressive.

So we have much in common. I would love to kn ow more about your time at sea.
I have done a post about crossing the Atlantic if you have time to visit.

Another blogger asked me if I had met you as we both lived in England!!!! It's not that small!!

I will be staying at my daughter's place in St. Albans later this month and am planning to visit Ashridge Estate Nr.Berkhampstead. the half term week.

Are you in easy striking distance of that and would you be interested in meeting if you are? No pressure if you are not interested.

Hugs and prayers.