And so Christmas is all packed away for another year, and somehow, the emptiness seems greater this year. Packing away the symbols of the celebration of His birth. Tree down. Decorations down. Walls, shelves, piano, doors, all stripped of their bright and beautiful adornments. Do you feel a sadness at this time? Does your home seem bare and empty too? You know, I can't even remember what goes where, and I don't know if I want to replicate what was before. It isn't now. So maybe I want it all to change. Maybe I need some weeks of thinking about it. Or even maybe I could start the decorating. Maybe.
But then, maybe not. I run away with myself at times, and the very last thing I need to be doing right now is unleashing the decorating fiends. It won't stop at one room. I just know. And before I know it I will be living in chaos once again. 2013 is not going to start in chaos.
The attic is now so full that it is impossible to get into it without first removing 34970590237 boxes. The little snag here is that all the Easter/Spring decorations are BEHIND the Christmas boxes. But I have nearly 2 months to contemplate the emptying and rejigging of the attic. And the lining up of the seasons in order. I am so full of good intentions, but seriously, yesterday all that mattered was that the whole lot was out of my kitchen.
And now the house is like a blank page - bare, and I am looking at my new diary, full of blank pages and I am wondering what 2013 has in store. And so help me, the head seems to be full of blank pages right now as well and all I can think of are the boring "to do" things. Exact dates and times and deadlines and barristers and ....you see? I just scribbled with black ink all over the list, because they are not vital in this second. Not today. And I have bread rolls heating through in the oven and eggs waiting to be mashed, and there is joy in that aroma of baking bread.
One day, I will get all my words of the years written into little bars like dog-tags of gold or silver and I will wear them all around my neck on a chain., I will never lose sight of what they are, will I? I think I am also going to put the word in the car somewhere, so I am always reminded, and in the kitchen too. It must be everywhere, because I want to live it out, get into the habit, and carry the meaning with me all the rest of my days.
And the memory being what it is, it needs as much help as I can muster!
I have booked for my aqua classes this week - I am finally easing myself into gear and trying to get a routine established. Not that easy, I can tell you.
My daughter did the cooking yesterday, and introduced Granny to enchiladas. Granny (and Mum) loved them!
Absolutely delicious. There are definite bonuses in having one's daughter in residence!
And now it could be time for a little snooze perhaps. I am tired. I may have done a bit much. Maybe about 3000% too much. Ah, I have a book. I have some wool. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz