You want to know how I am today? Really? Are you sure?? Positive?
I am furious. Mad as a wet hen. Rope-able.
With whom? Why?
With Geoff.
Because he is dead. Because he is not here. Because he is never going to be here again. Because my oven is dead. Because he would have fixed it in a heartbeat.
Did I say heartbeat?
The thing that killed hime when it stopped?
I am furious with his heart.
I am furious that it stopped.
I am furious that he is dead.
I am tired of coping with the mundane trivialities of the day. Broken ovens are up there at the top of the list, together with broken lamps, his test meter, straight curtain poles, getting in and out of the loft and lifting heavy things. Where was he when the toilet handle broke? When the hot water element needed replacing? When the microwave developed a life of its own? When the DISHWASHER broke. He could have fixed them all. He could and would have fixed everyone's broken things.
I am furious that he CAN'T.
I am furious because he didn't live so I could be furious with a PERSON.
Furious that he can't stomp off muttering "here we go again" when I get furious.
Just so you know.
I am furious.
FURIOUS.
That is all. Carry on.
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Oh. Linds. I'm so sorry. There there. (I know: that doesn't help at all.)
How frustrating!!! I can't imagine what it must feel like. So sorry.
{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}
Wish I could make it better for you, my friend!
But - and I know this is not. funny. at. all. - the new poster would read:
Be Furious
and
Carry On
Be Furious
and
Eat a Cupcake
Seriously, empathizing with you.
Love you!
I wish I could wave a magic wand for you. I'm very sorry and I just want to make it better.
You are all very sweet, girls.... I am not miserable. Just FURIOUS.
You've not done that yet? Well it is high time. Have at it... Perhaps I will get furious right along with you.
From what I understand, anger is one of the steps you have to go through. I wish he was there to fix those things and keep you safe and warm!
Hugs.
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