Friday, March 02, 2007

I like weekends

Another week has flown by, and it is absolutely pouring with rain at the moment. The noise of it pelting down onto the sky lights is deafening. But..... the weekend is here, and with it, a chance to unwind, and for that I am immensely grateful.

There is a lot going on in the blogging world at the moment, and there are so many people to visit and places to see, and that is something I want to catch up on this weekend, but I also want to catch up on my real life friends too.

I am finding the adjustment to working full time really difficult, and am struggling to find a balance. Here comes the old need vs want thing again. In a way, though, this is much harder than it seems on the surface. I need to work, but I want to remain closely involved with my friends and family. I need to put in hours of work at home to prepare, but I want to spend time talking and listening to the people I love. I need to study so much, but I want to be out in the community doing the things I have always done. I need to block in time for me, but I want to fall asleep whenever I am not rushing about. Sigh. It is just as well that I have always believed that "having it all" was an impossible dream. Something, or rather, someone, always loses out. I am like a juggler, trying to keep all the balls in the air at the same time, and someone keeps throwing in another one so the arms spin faster and faster. Now that is an amusing vision. I can just see it.

And all of a sudden, I can think of so many things I want to write about. Easter and our traditions. The difference in children in the same family. Our community. My son's wedding. But you know what? I am going to go and make more coffee ( I should change the name of this blog to the coffeepot or something) and then I am going to curl up in the rocking chair with a blanket, and some chocolate, and watch tv and let my mind slow down. Tomorrow is another day, and I might just have more energy. The juggling balls can rest for a while.


Sandy. said...

It's the weekend. Time to stop juggling. Put the balls down. Back away from the balls Linds. :)

Enjoy your weekend.


Danielle said...

It's a difficult task we set before be everything to becomes even more taxing when we put our personal needs and wants into the mix. You were wise to choose the blanket and hot my husband always tells me... all the 'shoulds' and 'would likes' will all be there tomorrow...but this quiet moment passes all too enjoy! Days like you have had today are what I call my 'popcorn thinking' days.....thoughts and ideas are just poppin' all over the place inside my head ;).....well, we share something in common this evening across the is pouring down rain here also...and I am about to take my supper and go sit on the couch under my favorite quilt and watch tv ;)....hope your weekend winds down to a manageable pace for you :)

momrn2 said...

I struggle with finding that balance too! If you have time to relax... take it!!!

Heidi said...

Linds this is a beautiful post! Thanks for the infinite wisdom you share! Love it!

Penless Thoughts said...

"Summing it all up, friends, I'd say you'll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious - the best, not the worst, the beautiful, not the ugly, things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excelent harmonies." Philippians 4:8-9 The Message

Sounds like you made the best choice and enjoyed the rocking chair, blanket and chocolate and slowed down your mind.